“Green with Envy” A Path To Destruction?

 

 

Not meant for permanent residence!

Not meant for permanent residence!

The bible talks about envy but goes in-depth about a man of God who suffered through his envy of fools(book III psalms 73-89). This man of God gives example after example of wicked people who prosper and have no worries. He speaks about the many trials he faces daily and admits all the short comings he feels compared to the ungodly. He is attending a pity party of 3(me, myself & I). But in his conclusion, similar to his beginning statement, he acknowledges the good in his life and that is the presence of God. Envy has been one of man’s greatest downfalls since Cain and Abel. Superiority always arouses envy and Cain was envious of Abel not because he was a fool but because he did something Cain didn’t. Through his faith and pure heart, Abel provided a more pleasing offering to God. It was envy that drove Cain to murder his brother and then hide from God afterwards. Because Cain allowed his envy to control his actions he faced the most severe consequences that is a life without the presence of God. He was marked for his transgression.

Moment of truth: There have been some moments of envy in my life for both the wicked fools and, as hard as it is to admit, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. The bible says only a fool envies another fool. There is no reason to envy what others may have whether they be a fool or a brother. When envying a fool what are we envying? Their bank accounts, their careers, their status in this world or their perfect life that doesn’t actually exist? Everyone is fighting a battle you may know nothing about. Furthermore, when we have feelings of envy towards a fellow brother or sister as Cain did Abel we risk taking the path of destruction. God loves His children and as shown through this story of brothers and envy we see what horrible consequences can come from such feelings when we feed into them.

We see two very clear examples of how envy can gain a foothold on our lives and destroy us if we don’t keep our eyes on the love of God that is ours through the acceptance of Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior. When we compare the wicked’s prosperity with our suffering or even envy our fellow believer’s blessings we are not keeping the faith in the fact that God is good. No matter our circumstance, He is who HE is! If we allow envy to consume us there will be no more room for God. You can have everything you have ever wanted in this world but truly I tell you my friends that a life without God is not a life at all. Instead you have a span of mere coincidences and passing moments that will flee and never matter again. EVERYTHING with God matters. Personally I don’t want to live a life praying for better moments, better opportunities or even that God solve all my problems. I want to live a life thanking God for every second He has gifted me with, praying and lifting up others and just down right appreciating all the blessings I am sure I take for granted at least once a day.

Sincerely,

4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

 

Genesis 4:1-25

Book III Psalm 73-89

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Can we earn Grace?

Grace is a gift from God that we can never earn.

This past weekend I had a girlfriend meet me at my house so we could go out for the day and enjoy some much needed girl time. As women we know our everyday busy lives can definitely make one grow weary. It’s so refreshing to step away from the day to day needs by hanging out with friends with similar demands and let go for a few hours to just enjoy each other’s company. So my friend came over and I met her and our other friend at the door with my then almost 2 year old Janessa.

It Ain't Easy Being Cheesy...(Yup, I Totally Went There!)

It Ain’t Easy Being Cheesy…(Yup, I Totally Went There!)

Janessa had just stuffed her face with cheetos right before I heard the doorbell. So here I am at the door with a cheese covered two-year old standing right next to me. The ladies come in and the first thing my daughter does is raise her hands as high as possible to one of my friends with a huge smile on her face. She motions her hands to be picked up. My friend being the loving, motherly woman she is could not resist such an invitation and I am sure you can guess what happened next. By the time my daughter left her arms there were cheese trails all over the front of my friends white shirt. As my friend was trying to rub away the orange cheese I apologized over and over but she smiled my sorry’s away which left me relieved. What she said next however, really gave me an “oh wow” moment.

jesus loves you

She realized that she was willing to pick up a really dirty toddler no matter the mess because she really loved her. She told me if anyone in public asked her where the mess came from she would answer, “Janessa loved on me!” Then she told me it reminded her of God’s love towards herself. When she came to God she was dirty, filthy and full of sin and here was God with His pure white garments. God saw her looking up as dirty as can be with a big smile and raised hands out reaching for HIM to grab her. She motioned out for him to pick her up and HE couldn’t resist but to reach back.

God loves each one of us and asks that we come to him sins and all. HE tells us to come as we are because no matter what we may have done in the past God is the God of love, forgiveness and mercy. HE sent His ONE AND ONLY son to die so that we can live. This means that when we accept Jesus, who paid the ultimate price for our debt, we too can be cloth in pure white garments as our Father in heaven. He will wipe the slate clean on the dirtiest stains of your past. Paul said I am the worst sinner there is yet God saved him so that we may know that no sin in comparison could ever be beyond the reach of God’s grace. We do not deserve grace but that is what’s so beautiful about God’s love and mercy. Grace is a gift that we can never earn but is given to us through faith in Jesus. What a beautiful “Oh wow” moment this was.

Sincerely,
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

 

Ephesians 2:4-5
But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ, even when we were dead in sin, it is by grace you have been saved.

 

Forgiveness through Faith can Save Marriages!

Forgiveness

I’ve dealt with a lot of forgiveness issues from my past and present as I’m sure many you have. Whether I am having trouble forgiving myself, a stranger or someone close to me one thing remains the same. I am a prisoner of my own lack of forgiveness. As some of you following my blog may know I’ve had a few marital problems and they mostly stem from lack of forgiveness. I can also safely say I haven’t taken a lot of responsibility for my part in what I like to refer to as what seemed to be a smorgasbord of problems between the two of us.

Through my ongoing study of God’s word, other blogs involving Christian wives and their roles, for example “Unveiled Wife” which I definitely recommend, and related articles I have realized something. What looked to be the downfall of my marriage actually is turning out to be what is saving not only my marriage itself but restoring a very broken relationship my husband and I had with our Savior!

Let me explain. When my husband and I entered our marriage we were completely oblivious to the roles our Father had set forth for us thousands of years ago. Needless to say we were trying to build our foundation on sand and it was not long before we began to crumble. We were sliding down that very slippery path of destruction that leads to the dead end of marriage called divorce. I lost almost all hope and in my mind there was no going back. I had held on to so much hurt and score keeping that I didn’t know which way was up. Yet there on my path lied such a battle of conflict.

On my path there were all these voices telling me that I didn’t deserve this pain, I was an independent woman, and that I was still young so I could move on easily. Voices telling me that if I forgave for whatever wrongdoing that I felt had been done against me then I was somehow admitting defeat. My anger was consuming me. I was letting this anger control me so that I wouldn’t forgive. I didn’t want to forgive. I had a choice to make. I finally started asking for God to softened my heart because I knew my heart had grew so cold.

All these confusing voices in my head were not coming from the Lord. God is not the author of confusion and we need to let that sink in our brains and let God take over. As my Pastor said best, “Our newness in Christ should begin and take place in our homes first!”

So I prayed and prayed and God gave me an entirely new path. This path is paved with beautiful, unconditional, forgiving love that only God himself can show us. I had been holding on to grudges yet rejoicing in all the forgiveness my Lord could give me the instant I accepted HIM as my Lord and Savior.

To Forgive The Undeserving Is To Show Grace…

I had been told by many to pray for the ones who hurt me as well as myself. So I prayed. I prayed for his heart and I prayed for my heart and I strived for sincerity. It did not happen in my timing but in HIS timing I finally saw hope entering back into my mind and heart.

Slowly my anger melted away like snow melting off the sun kissed pedals of a flower on the first day of Spring. God loves marriage. He does not want to see his children divorcing. Where there is a will, there is a way and if you don’t have that will pray for the Lord to restore that will in you. I am here telling you that I’ve seen the brink of divorce but it doesn’t have to end there!

Do you remember when you were on fire for the Lord? You went shouting on every mountain top that you love Jesus and you’re not ashamed to tell it to anyone willing to hear you. Then maybe after a few months or years your fire starts to dwindle down. You may still go to Church but you just don’t witness like you use to or feel the Holy Spirit every time you pray. Same things happen to people who are married. The love is new and exciting in the beginning but may become comfortable or casual after a while.

If that sounds like you then I encourage you to re-evaluate your relationship with your savior and see what you can do to improve your servant’s heart for the Lord every day. We should strive to implement this intentional behavior in our marriages as well. If we cannot stay committed to someone we can touch, feel, see and love physically as well as benefit from physically than how is the Lord to trust that we can stay committed to our relationship with him? This is why I believe the Lord holds marriage so close to HIS heart.

Pray daily my friends and seek Christian counseling from older married members of your church, your pastor, and most importantly your bible! React in love, patience and forgiveness. If you or your spouse are full of anger look to your Word. Do what the word asks and pray every day for God to guide you through. Remember faith as small as a mustard can move mountains! My husband and I are moving our mountain together by the grace of God. You can too!

Sincerely,
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you. ~Ephesians 4:32

 

HIS Sheep

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When the image of ourselves comes to mind what does that image look like? Some of us may be more confident than others and the image that comes to their mind may be the image of someone who is strong, beautiful, courageous, smart or whatever the case may be. Others might have more insecurities and see themselves as weak, plain, small and so forth. We can be all these things yet none of them at the same time. Romans chapter 8:36 “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” Who do you think made you the way you are? We were made to be overcomers and the Lord made us that way. He put the desire in us to be more. We are sheep for the slaughter but we have a Good Shepherd and that Shepherd is Jesus Christ our Lord. Just as a shepherd protects his defenseless sheep against the wolves Jesus protects us against the evils that the Devil plots against us on a daily basis. We are smack dab in the middle of SPIRITUAL WARFARE and most people do not even realize this. The wolf(Devil) is a very tricky creature. I’m sure you are familiar with the expression “Beware of wolves in sheep’s clothing.” This statement has the devil’s handy work written all over it. How many stories do we hear or read about the devil coming to people and telling them straight forward “I am the Devil and I want your soul so please commit this sin so that you may burn in Hell and be mine for all eternity?” Even an atheist would think twice before making that deal. Of course the devil will use lies and tricks to win our souls because he knows he would lose otherwise. He will disguise himself as seemingly harmless things that may start out innocent but the Devil knows better. He knows great evil can begin from good intentions. As the sheep for slaughter we must know what is at stake here. God has placed us with weapons to fight evil and it is up to us to accept Jesus Christ and rise to the challenge. We must challenge our pride, our way of thinking, our self-centeredness and realize this war is much bigger than you and I. This is a war we must fight to Glorify God! We must bare our own crosses in this life because Jesus is the only way.

“The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law nor can it do so.” Romans 8:7. This verse rings home for me, not only now that I have begun my spiritual journey and seem to run into a lot of retaliation but because before I was saved I myself acted out in the same manner. I remember the perpetual cliché “Don’t judge me!” shouting from my lips to those who would testify to me. Now having begun my studies of the Word I realize how ignorant that statement truly is. Don’t judge me?! Jesus did say “do not judge, or you too will be judged” and on the other hand we are also told to beware of evildoers and false prophets and to avoid those who practice all kinds of evil. How are we to distinguish who these people are if we do not make some kind of judgment about what they are doing? Believers of Christ are always being depicted as judgmental people when we speak out against sinful activity yet how can we separate ourselves from the sinful ways of the flesh if we do not exercise a sort of righteous judgment with careful discernment? We must judge the sin and know it is a matter of right from wrong. Sin has been judged by our Almighty God himself and left here on Earth in our Bibles as plain as day for us to implement. Jesus told us not to judge hypocritically. Meaning I can’t sit here and tell all my friends and loved ones that the Lord wants us to keep a sober mind and then go home and drink a bottle of liquor in secrecy. It is our Christian duty to LOVINGLY and RESPECTFULLY confront another believer who is sinning. This is not judging but rather pointing out the truth with love. A sinner is never without hope. We give hope with the ultimate goal of bringing repentance in the other person and restoration to the fellowship. Here’s a little nugget passed on to me by a beautiful Christian soul. She defined the word hypocrite to me not as someone who has done in the past what they are telling you NOT to do now. A hypocrite is someone who will tell you not to behave one way when they themselves are doing that very thing they are instructing you not to do and see no fault in themselves for doing so. As stated before we all fall but a true Christian will feel the conviction of the Holy Spirit, repent and truly strive to never make that same mistake again. Hypocrites will only make excuses as to why they did it and continue their destructive behavior without a second thought. I have in more or less words been called this because of my spotted past. I’ve learned from my mistakes and continue to learn from them and only wish to spare others from having to learn the hard way as I did. In this day in age hypocrite is viewed as more unacceptable than some of the worst curse words out there. Even murderers and such characters hate to be called hypocrites. They’ll say things like “Oh I may be a murderer but at least I’m not a hypocrite!” Imagine that. Nevertheless sin is sin. We must all strive to be more understanding and loving of each other instead of fighting over our differences.

God hates sin and to love God would be to hate sin as well. This brings me to my next and final point for the day, I promise.
The second perpetual cliché I hear spoken against Christians today, “I thought you were supposed to be a Christian?” or “I thought you were a Christian now; perfect?) along with being called a hypocrite. It is true that as Christians we are held to higher spiritual standards because we are fully aware of the spiritual warfare going on around us and yes the bible is considered my “How To” survival kit, my dearest possession. The bible holds all I need to know about life and how to develop my relationship with my Savior but let me be clear. I will stumble. I will fall. I will make mistakes and most importantly I will get back up, repent and ask God for forgiveness and strength to not fall as easily next time. Being Christian does not mean that I all of a sudden have all the answers or that one day if I pray enough or read enough that I will be perfect. Being a Christian means I know I am weak but my GOD is oh SO STRONG! I urge those of you who hold on to your fleshly desires as I myself fight the temptations of this world every day, to STOP playing church! If you do not fully commit to the Lord’s commands then how do you expect to fight the wolves at bay? We will surely be devoured and leave our children defenseless if we do not use our God given weapons to fight the flesh and the devil all in one. If God be for us then who dare be against us? God deserves your whole heart, will you give it to him?

Sincerely,
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

“I have a message in my heart concerning the sinfulness of the wicked. There is no fear of God before their eyes.” Psalm 36:1

“Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.” Romans 8:5.

God is Love

god is love                                                                                                             God IS Love

God, my Lord and savior is many great things. He is known as the Holy Spirit, God of Angel Armies, Prince of Peace, Alpha & Omega, The Great I Am, and so much more that the list can go on and on. As I began this journey after God’s heart I soon realized all that He truly is. One of the many great things God is, is love. God is Love! He is the one true definition of the word. In the book of Corinthians it speaks about love. “Love is patient and kind, love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things, Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away, as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

This to me speaks volumes on my generation and where I personally have been in my life before. I know now I’ve never truly loved because how could I love myself or another when I go against the very true essence of love defined by the word? I truly believe we cannot learn to love ourselves or anyone else until we can know and love God. God is all of these things. He is kind and patient and wishes no harm to us. He gave us life and free will even though HE is all knowing. He knows the evil that lies in each and every one of our hearts yet He loves us anyway because we are HIS children.

If you have a child I can explain it to you this way. You will always love your child because you gave them life and it is a natural instinct. They may disappoint you or get involved with horrible things which cause you to step back but your love for them will always exist and you will always hope for them to come back to you and do the right things in their lives. Well imagine that love and multiply it by infinity because God loves us more than we can even fathom. He is our Father whom we should strive to always please. If you feel like God has never done one thing great in your life or he has never favored you, remind yourself that HE gave you life!

In Romans 12:19-21 Paul talks about not taking revenge or feeding into your Wrath because the Lord’s wrath is sufficient. Make no mistake about our Lord. He IS love but HIS wrath is very real as well. If someone was messing with your child would you not feel some type of anger or a need to protect your child against harm? He feels this way towards us. We belong to him and he watches over us. He doesn’t want us to take any steps towards vengeance because we are all born sinners and even our judgement against wrong doing can be misplaced. God can see one’s heart when all we can see is the outside.

What If This Was Everyone's Motto?!

What If This Was Everyone’s Motto?!

To judge another for a sin they may have committed to you chances are you have probably done the same or are capable of doing it in the future is misplaced judgment. I find that some of the things that offend us or upset us the most are some of the very same things we ourselves are guilty of. How weird is that?

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 When we judge others we have no room to love them. Instead of judging each other we can speak truth in love according to God’s word. I am convinced that even righteous judgement should be treaded very lightly. We all fall short of perfection and is why our need for our savior becomes vital. Self-righteousness is all too easily found in the human psyche. I am still learning in my walk to keep true judgement up to God because if I am too busy judging what someone is or isn’t doing correctly where is the time to love them and point them back to God?

God doesn’t hold ANY sin higher than another. To Him it is all sin and HE is holy. Where there is holiness, sin cannot be. That is why when you live in sin the presence of the Holy Spirit dwindles. We do not know the intentions of other’s hearts but God does and if the true intentions are evil they will have HIM to answer to and may He have mercy on their souls. God bless you all my brothers and sisters and I pray this post encourages you all to love God’s way.

Sincerely,
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

Romans 12:19-21

Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” To the contrary, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 3:23

For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,

Isaiah 13:9

Behold, the day of the Lord comes, cruel, with wrath and fierce anger, to make the land a desolation and to destroy its sinners from it.

Romans 12:9

Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good.

Traits of Saints

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When you hear the word “Saint” certain images or behavior come to mind or at the very least in my thought process growing up it did. I grew up in a Catholic church. We prayed in the name of many saints and each saint even had their own candle and strength to which we prayed to them for. Growing up I never truly questioned our family’s belief and in the same respect never did I have the relationship I now have with my savior or any relationship with him for that matter. In my experiences it never became personal with God and I. I remember lighting candles and praying to the Virgin Mary or St. Joseph for such things as this prayer: “Oh St. Joseph, whose protection is so great, so strong, so prompt before the throne of God, I place in you all my interests and desires.” Saints were depicted to me as ones who we should pray to and even felt as if we were worshiping these saints. This is not the desire of our God. There is no name above his and all glory must go to God himself, Jesus Christ and the Holy spirit for they are the trinity. While distinct in their relations with one another, they are one in all else.

In the book of Colossians Paul’s purpose was to bring encouragement on what to believe about Christ and how to act on that belief. Saints are described as meaning “Holy Ones” who have faith in Christ and love other believers according to the Word. This is not to say saints are perfect and are people who never do wrong. God has an awesome habit of picking nobodies with weaknesses because he sees their strengths. God loves us and he wants that personal relationship with us. It does not bring him joy to see us praying to others rather than himself. HE is our God and he alone can answer our prayers. We do not need interpreters to speak to God. God can see our true hearts desires without us even speaking one word so why have a middle man? This is not to confuse with praying in numbers. There is no greater love then worshiping with your fellow believers in God’s name. So many people know God’s word and so many other people do not take the time to read HIS word. I must admit I was very much guilty of not reading the word but having a strong opinion on who God is and what he doesn’t do to his people and how he believes we should live. This whole time I was creating a God to fit my lifestyle. In order to do the right thing you have to know what is right, believe it is right and then execute the right thing.

Think of the bible as your B.asic I.nstructions B.efore L.eaving E.arth. We will always be a work in progress constantly hungering to be creating ourselves closer and closer to the image of Jesus Christ. That is the love we should all strive to have for God. It will take conviction, sacrifice and turning against our Earthly desires. Some people I know have knowledge of the word. Way more than I know now as I am just beginning this journey of mine yet they do not possess the wisdom. Wisdom is the appropriate use of knowledge. Using your knowledge of the word in life for God is wisdom but using that same knowledge against a fellow child of god is a far cry from the very concept of ever even having this knowledge. I myself love to dance and in my outings would also drink like a fish. But I have been born again in Jesus Christ yet I know I am weak. I do not wish to put myself in situations where I know I may be tempted to go back to who I was before I accepted God in my heart. The devils wishes for us to succumb even if it is just me going out to a club just to dance he will see me in a weak stage surrounded by non-believers and I may crumble and have crumbled in the past accepting the lie that I was that person again. God knows we can’t and never will measure up to HIS perfection but God’s grace and mercy is shown when he sent his only PERFECT son to die on the cross for OUR sins. I am struggling with this very thing and I thank God for the inspiration he has given me to write this for his beautiful children to see.

I do not wish to put down any fellow believers in any religion because that is not my intent. I only wish to share my knowledge and pray that God blesses that knowledge I am gaining and guide me into wisdom to share to all. My belief in Jesus Christ is not my religion but he is my savior, my love, my husband, my everything. I only wish to share my knowledge that I am slowly gaining everyday worshiping and bible studying with my fellow believers on what the Word says to do. I urge all believers whether you are Catholic, Pentecostal, Christian etc. that you gain that personal relationship with your savior. That relationship alone will bring you so much joy, happiness and strength you never thought possible. I am walking proof of this my friends. I don’t have much by this Earth’s standards but I have EVERYTHING in my love for Jesus! A saint receives strength from God and does NOT give up easily. (Colossians VS.11)

I’ve met some of the strongest worshipers with faith the size of mountains who within the uncertainty of the inevitable “backsliding” back into a life without God it scares them to their very core. Yet these same people know that through God all things are possible. He is the great I AM! This is something even people who have been saved for over 20 years know that they have to constantly work for. We will ALWAYS be a work in progress and not one person will be righteous enough to stop learning about God and stop trying to grow closer to him. Until that day our lord calls us up to be with him and be made like him in spirit out of this early flesh we carry with us, we must never stop gaining the wisdom of HIS word. God’s grace saves me from always giving up. His strength gives me strength to handle circumstances and as my preacher stated even joyfully at times I will face hardships. If you leave this post today with one thing I would pray that it would be to re-evaluate the relationship you have with your savior. It should be intimate as only you and HIM could be together. He lives in all of us waiting for the day for us to accept him so that we may be saved under his grace. No matter what you say or think God will always love you.

Sincerely,
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman