God: A defense against defense mechanisms.

Anger and sarcasm have been my defense mechanisms since childhood. I wasn’t the most popular kid growing up whether I was being picked on because I came from a poor family who couldn’t afford the latest trends or because I was one of the lightest skinned kids in a predominately Hispanic school. You name it, I was probably teased about it. But as the years passed by I learned that I had a wit about me and I could tango with the best of them. When these kids picked on me it was all too easy to tear them down a notch as they have been doing to me. The temporary satisfaction of getting even only led me to believe that this is what I should have been doing all along. Defend myself at all costs, that’s what the world teaches us, right? Wrong. Had I known then that it never mattered what these kids thought of me, it only matters what God thinks of me, perhaps my anger and especially my attitude would not be such a battle I face so often today in my adulthood.

Anger in itself is not a sin; Actions carried out in Anger can be.

Anger in itself is not a sin;
Actions carried out in Anger can be.

There are days where my anger wins the battle and I walk away feeling defeated by my own actions but then there are days filled with glorious victories that eclipse whatever win the devil thought he had over me. On those days I realize how truly far God has brought me. He is my great defender and will right any wrong done against me. And furthermore that in the face of a trial a lesson can always be learned.

God can transform the most stubborn of hearts out there and use them for good just like He did with Paul(Saul). God has promised to finish the work He has begun in us and there isn’t a shadow of a doubt in my mind that it will be done. Piece by piece we will be chipped away until that precious day we are called up and will be made perfect like our savior Jesus Christ. I pray that each of us can extend grace especially to those we feel do not deserve it. I lift all those who are struggling with these same anger issues as me. May we be lifted up to the Lord so that He may remove every stem of bitterness and resentment in our hearts. Help us to forgive, let go and not sin in anger. In the precious name of Jesus Christ I pray this over every person who reads this message. Amen. God bless you all my brothers and sisters.

Sincerely,

4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

 

A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. ~Proverbs 29:11

Don’t let anyone diminish the light within yourself…

 

God made us in his image. We are favored because we are his children. It was said that even the angels in heaven became jealous of the love our Lord has for us. Can you imagine that? Angels, jealous of us?! How could we not feel loved? Sad to say that we go through this life clinging to the hope that we will find that “one true love” that “never ending, all consuming, can’t sleep at night love.” All the while this love has been promised to us thousands of years ago. God’s love is perfect. It is never faltering and HE will never let you down. People on earth are only human and no matter how good a person is in one way or another disappointment will occur.

Let your Light Shine3
I must admit this is all fairly new to me but I kid you not when I say in the midst of starting back from zero I have never felt more alive and full of the strength that I once prayed for every day and night. I may have had my doubts in the past. As cynical as I was I can honestly sit here today and tell you I have 0 doubts that Jesus Christ is my savior. I fell in love with Jesus and I accepted him as my one true love. At this point I am so enwrapped in Awe of our Lord and savior that a man would need to be close to God in order to be close to me.
I know someone near and dear to my heart who is going through something very similar to my situation. And I would like to dedicate this post to her! Stay strong my friend. The road is long but with God by our side there isn’t a single hardship we can’t face and overcome. She too was in an abusive relationship and tried clinging on for the sake of their child. Now when a woman falls in love she falls hard. Not saying this does not apply to men but in this case we’re talking about women who are after God’s heart. So any who, this friend of mine, is a beautiful soul lost in what she thought would be her fairytale. Her happy ending. Too many times I hear women say that they stayed longer than they would have had they not had a child together. I was one of those women. I am an advocate for marriage and of course I would never want to see any family split up but when abuse is involved then it is a whole other story.
God did not create woman from Adam’s head to be controlled by him nor did he create us from his feet to be stepped on, instead the almighty lord created Eve from Adam’s rib, close to his heart so that we may stand side by side as equals. It is when a man treats you with such love as Christ loved the church that you know you have a man of God. I myself had not been saved when I met my husband therefore I chose my partner based on things of this Earth. A mistake I will not make again. I don’t know what the future holds for me or my friend but ladies I implore you, if a man is making you feel less than what you are, a beautiful child of God, then that is a abuse and you should either seek counseling and or/remove yourself from the situation. Abuse can be verbal, mental and or physical. I’ve encountered all three in one man. I pray that God can change me and in return allow me to lead by example and pray for change in my husband. Only God knows what is in store for us but if he is showing you signs that you need to let go of something then we as women after God’s heart need to listen. He will take things away from us because he has something better than we could have ever imagined waiting for us. All it takes is a little faith. But PLEASE do not let anyone diminish the light you have within yourself. God loves you for who you are. Remember the Devil knows your name but calls you by your sin, God knows your sin but calls you by your name.
I can do all things through Christ which strengthneth me. ~Phillippians 4:13
Sincerely,
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman