Anger and sarcasm have been my defense mechanisms since childhood. I wasn’t the most popular kid growing up whether I was being picked on because I came from a poor family who couldn’t afford the latest trends or because I was one of the lightest skinned kids in a predominately Hispanic school. You name it, I was probably teased about it. But as the years passed by I learned that I had a wit about me and I could tango with the best of them. When these kids picked on me it was all too easy to tear them down a notch as they have been doing to me. The temporary satisfaction of getting even only led me to believe that this is what I should have been doing all along. Defend myself at all costs, that’s what the world teaches us, right? Wrong. Had I known then that it never mattered what these kids thought of me, it only matters what God thinks of me, perhaps my anger and especially my attitude would not be such a battle I face so often today in my adulthood.
Anger in itself is not a sin;
Actions carried out in Anger can be.
There are days where my anger wins the battle and I walk away feeling defeated by my own actions but then there are days filled with glorious victories that eclipse whatever win the devil thought he had over me. On those days I realize how truly far God has brought me. He is my great defender and will right any wrong done against me. And furthermore that in the face of a trial a lesson can always be learned.
God can transform the most stubborn of hearts out there and use them for good just like He did with Paul(Saul). God has promised to finish the work He has begun in us and there isn’t a shadow of a doubt in my mind that it will be done. Piece by piece we will be chipped away until that precious day we are called up and will be made perfect like our savior Jesus Christ. I pray that each of us can extend grace especially to those we feel do not deserve it. I lift all those who are struggling with these same anger issues as me. May we be lifted up to the Lord so that He may remove every stem of bitterness and resentment in our hearts. Help us to forgive, let go and not sin in anger. In the precious name of Jesus Christ I pray this over every person who reads this message. Amen. God bless you all my brothers and sisters.
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman
A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. ~Proverbs 29:11
We could all use more slices of humble pie throughout our day. When you’re passionate about God’s word to the point where you cannot go a day without telling someone about Jesus something inside of you makes you never want to stop. And that’s more than great, it’s amazing. The Holy Spirit works wonders this way.
Such humility is the beautiful smile on the face of God
I pray we continue to show love and kindness when spreading God’s word. There are some that will be offended no matter how much love we tell the truth with and only God can change a hardened or shallow heart so let’s not take their offense personal. Rather truly pray for them because it is God they are truly attacking whether they know it or not. And Lord have mercy on a soul that picks a fight against the very creator of all the universe. God bless my brothers and sisters.
4rm Party Girl to Praying Woman
Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. Philippians 2:5-11
Not meant for permanent residence!
The bible talks about envy but goes in-depth about a man of God who suffered through his envy of fools(book III psalms 73-89). This man of God gives example after example of wicked people who prosper and have no worries. He speaks about the many trials he faces daily and admits all the short comings he feels compared to the ungodly. He is attending a pity party of 3(me, myself & I). But in his conclusion, similar to his beginning statement, he acknowledges the good in his life and that is the presence of God. Envy has been one of man’s greatest downfalls since Cain and Abel. Superiority always arouses envy and Cain was envious of Abel not because he was a fool but because he did something Cain didn’t. Through his faith and pure heart, Abel provided a more pleasing offering to God. It was envy that drove Cain to murder his brother and then hide from God afterwards. Because Cain allowed his envy to control his actions he faced the most severe consequences that is a life without the presence of God. He was marked for his transgression.
Moment of truth: There have been some moments of envy in my life for both the wicked fools and, as hard as it is to admit, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. The bible says only a fool envies another fool. There is no reason to envy what others may have whether they be a fool or a brother. When envying a fool what are we envying? Their bank accounts, their careers, their status in this world or their perfect life that doesn’t actually exist? Everyone is fighting a battle you may know nothing about. Furthermore, when we have feelings of envy towards a fellow brother or sister as Cain did Abel we risk taking the path of destruction. God loves His children and as shown through this story of brothers and envy we see what horrible consequences can come from such feelings when we feed into them.
We see two very clear examples of how envy can gain a foothold on our lives and destroy us if we don’t keep our eyes on the love of God that is ours through the acceptance of Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior. When we compare the wicked’s prosperity with our suffering or even envy our fellow believer’s blessings we are not keeping the faith in the fact that God is good. No matter our circumstance, He is who HE is! If we allow envy to consume us there will be no more room for God. You can have everything you have ever wanted in this world but truly I tell you my friends that a life without God is not a life at all. Instead you have a span of mere coincidences and passing moments that will flee and never matter again. EVERYTHING with God matters. Personally I don’t want to live a life praying for better moments, better opportunities or even that God solve all my problems. I want to live a life thanking God for every second He has gifted me with, praying and lifting up others and just down right appreciating all the blessings I am sure I take for granted at least once a day.
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman
Book III Psalm 73-89
Have you ever had a “should’ve had a V8 moment” and no it has nothing to do with the juice? What I mean is that I just had a moment where I wanted to smack myself in the forehead because of something I said. I am a mother of a very rambunctious toddler. She gets into everything, has tons of energy and rarely understands that no means no the first time. I love my daughter and therefore I discipline her when her actions call for it. She is a loving and sweet child but just like adults she has her days where she is snappy, shutting herself away from the world. On days like this I find myself telling her “Janessa, don’t be mean!”
Flash forward to just a moment ago, I am in my office having another work through lunch when a couple of coworkers walk past my desk. As I am eating I hear one of them ask what it is that I am eating. “Chicken Alfredo”, I said. With a snarky smirk on his face he says, “That doesn’t look anything like chicken alfredo!” He then proceeds to laugh with another coworker walking out the door. His reply should have been just that, HIS reply. Before I knew it my witty comeback urged its way out saying, “I don’t recall asking for your opinion!” Not sure if he heard me because as he was walking out he also muttered, “Smells good though.” Conviction radiated through me almost instantaneously.
The Holy Spirit’s conviction is beautiful like that.
So I reflected on the situation.Why is it that I felt the need to retaliate? I know I am not the best cook but I also know that this does not diminish my value as a woman, person and most importantly a child of God. So again, why did I let one small comment get to me so immensely that I felt the need to duplicate snarkyness and pay it forward?! In this moment I told myself out loud “Don’t be mean Janessa!” I have been so accustomed to telling my daughter this every time she behaved in a malicious way towards anyone that when I was correcting myself her name was automatically inserted. I could not help but laugh at first and then I thought. How many of us actually practice what we preach? There have been other times like this where I post on a certain subject and then fail a battle and I sit shaking my head at myself. We all make mistakes but it is God who uses these mistakes to teach us and others through us.
The world will tell you that vengeance is ours. Your flesh will call for you to give an eye for an eye but what does that do other than make the whole world blind? There are evil forces that want you to believe and act in this way so that in the future we will rely on ourselves for justice. This is a false concept. The one and only true justifier is God himself. There is a healthy fear we are to have for the Lord, a fear that He is almighty and if we give into evil we will perish. The cross has already won the war but there are still very real spiritual battles we must face each day. Great news is we do not have to face this battle alone. God is always by our side when we call on Him.
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman
“Though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.”
This past weekend I had a girlfriend meet me at my house so we could go out for the day and enjoy some much needed girl time. As women we know our everyday busy lives can definitely make one grow weary. It’s so refreshing to step away from the day to day needs by hanging out with friends with similar demands and let go for a few hours to just enjoy each other’s company. So my friend came over and I met her and our other friend at the door with my then almost 2 year old Janessa.
It Ain’t Easy Being Cheesy…(Yup, I Totally Went There!)
Janessa had just stuffed her face with cheetos right before I heard the doorbell. So here I am at the door with a cheese covered two-year old standing right next to me. The ladies come in and the first thing my daughter does is raise her hands as high as possible to one of my friends with a huge smile on her face. She motions her hands to be picked up. My friend being the loving, motherly woman she is could not resist such an invitation and I am sure you can guess what happened next. By the time my daughter left her arms there were cheese trails all over the front of my friends white shirt. As my friend was trying to rub away the orange cheese I apologized over and over but she smiled my sorry’s away which left me relieved. What she said next however, really gave me an “oh wow” moment.
She realized that she was willing to pick up a really dirty toddler no matter the mess because she really loved her. She told me if anyone in public asked her where the mess came from she would answer, “Janessa loved on me!” Then she told me it reminded her of God’s love towards herself. When she came to God she was dirty, filthy and full of sin and here was God with His pure white garments. God saw her looking up as dirty as can be with a big smile and raised hands out reaching for HIM to grab her. She motioned out for him to pick her up and HE couldn’t resist but to reach back.
God loves each one of us and asks that we come to him sins and all. HE tells us to come as we are because no matter what we may have done in the past God is the God of love, forgiveness and mercy. HE sent His ONE AND ONLY son to die so that we can live. This means that when we accept Jesus, who paid the ultimate price for our debt, we too can be cloth in pure white garments as our Father in heaven. He will wipe the slate clean on the dirtiest stains of your past. Paul said I am the worst sinner there is yet God saved him so that we may know that no sin in comparison could ever be beyond the reach of God’s grace. We do not deserve grace but that is what’s so beautiful about God’s love and mercy. Grace is a gift that we can never earn but is given to us through faith in Jesus. What a beautiful “Oh wow” moment this was.
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman
But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ, even when we were dead in sin, it is by grace you have been saved.
Wisdom, we all search for it. Scientists look to big bang theories or the evolutionary process in attempts to explain where we come from. They wish to be able to explain the unexplainable. All the answers we need are in God’s word. The bible is the Word; The Word is God; and God IS Wisdom. We can pray for God to bestow HIS wisdom upon us but we must first learn to humble ourselves. Knowledge by itself can make one very conceited. God is all knowing and it is by Faith and Trust that we walk with Him. We live in a very materialistic world where people go crazy if they forget their cell phones or misplace them. For this I am VERY guilty. Some who know me, know that my cell phone is glued to my hand. It is how I write, how I learn, communicate and stay in touch with clients. This is how we should treat HIS Word. I must treat my bible more precious than any of my possessions. Whatever questions about life or troubles I may encounter can and need to be faced with the bible. We value things such as jewels, money, and some of us even value people more than we do our relationship with God. I am witness to you that the most valuable jewels lay there in the bible. Be hungry for God’s wisdom for He sees all and knows all. Absolutely nothing being done in this day and age can be described as original or never been done before. There is nothing that is being done today that has not already been done and given judgment upon by God himself.
As humans we are always trying to make sense of life. Scholars will use their knowledge to try and disprove God. I pray for those lost souls who think by rationalizing biblical events that they can somehow deteriorate the value of God or even his existence at all. Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Do not commit spiritual suicide by trying to please those in the way of the world. We are NOT in control. We have never been nor will we ever. God is a gracious God and he has unselfishly given us the free will in hopes that we make the right decisions and turn to him. Those who turn away from Christ, do not be fooled into thinking you have somehow garnered control of your own “manifest destiny” as to say, the Devil has won the battle of your soul the second you turned from God. The devil is the King of all liars and the inventor of arrogance. He was so arrogant as to think he could be equal to God. His fate is sealed. You know the saying misery loves company? The devil cannot wait to get his hands on you and your children. He will turn you against God if you let him. Ask God from the bottom of your heart for the desire to know him better and take the Word as your diamond nuggets of wisdom. Everything that we have been warned against by HIS word in the bible stays true to this day. It is just in recent years that science is catching up on such things being healthy for us for example circumcision and fasting. I don’t know about you but if 2000 years ago someone told me I needed to fast to grow spiritually closer to God I would have had many questions, not to mention had I been a man and I was asked to cut a piece of my manhood off to prove I am one of the chosen people I may have freaked out a little bit. The thing is all these things are proven to be cleansing rituals, better for our health and fasting actually helps rid our bodies of toxins.
God doesn’t wish to harm us, he only wishes to help us but people have to want to change for the betterment of their salvation. Just as we will let our children make mistakes to learn from sometimes it is necessary for us adults to learn through this message. God has laid out the way, HIS way and if we shall stumble He will be there to pick us up as any Father would.
Man has been separated from God. God is not to blame for this separation. Our sinful ways are to blame. God is not neutral. He hates sin and as we love our fellow mankind we must remember we should not hate each other but rather the sins in all of us for they are all the same before God. The apostle Paul always refers to our “sinful labels” as past tense. We are not ALL sinners. Sinners live in sin, while saints sin and feel the conviction of the Holy Spirit. Here in lies the difference. Once the conviction is no longer present in your life I urge you to reevaluate what you hold as your valued jewels. Jesus died to save us. We were all sinners when he sacrificed his life so that we may be born again. I had a very intimate moment when I was baptized last month. I died that morning but I live today. I live today in Jesus Christ and that means I will never be the same again. Sure I will fall, but I know God has control over my life. I will pray to him as I am weak but my God is strong. God built us to be overcomers and in this day and age it is ourselves we must overcome. Bare your cross as Jesus bore his and die to your sins. Declare you will live for the Lord and let Jesus take the wheel. Until then and only then will you have the Wisdom of which you seek.
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman
“For the Lord giveth wisdom; out of his mouth cometh knowledge and understanding.”
When you hear the word “Saint” certain images or behavior come to mind or at the very least in my thought process growing up it did. I grew up in a Catholic church. We prayed in the name of many saints and each saint even had their own candle and strength to which we prayed to them for. Growing up I never truly questioned our family’s belief and in the same respect never did I have the relationship I now have with my savior or any relationship with him for that matter. In my experiences it never became personal with God and I. I remember lighting candles and praying to the Virgin Mary or St. Joseph for such things as this prayer: “Oh St. Joseph, whose protection is so great, so strong, so prompt before the throne of God, I place in you all my interests and desires.” Saints were depicted to me as ones who we should pray to and even felt as if we were worshiping these saints. This is not the desire of our God. There is no name above his and all glory must go to God himself, Jesus Christ and the Holy spirit for they are the trinity. While distinct in their relations with one another, they are one in all else.
In the book of Colossians Paul’s purpose was to bring encouragement on what to believe about Christ and how to act on that belief. Saints are described as meaning “Holy Ones” who have faith in Christ and love other believers according to the Word. This is not to say saints are perfect and are people who never do wrong. God has an awesome habit of picking nobodies with weaknesses because he sees their strengths. God loves us and he wants that personal relationship with us. It does not bring him joy to see us praying to others rather than himself. HE is our God and he alone can answer our prayers. We do not need interpreters to speak to God. God can see our true hearts desires without us even speaking one word so why have a middle man? This is not to confuse with praying in numbers. There is no greater love then worshiping with your fellow believers in God’s name. So many people know God’s word and so many other people do not take the time to read HIS word. I must admit I was very much guilty of not reading the word but having a strong opinion on who God is and what he doesn’t do to his people and how he believes we should live. This whole time I was creating a God to fit my lifestyle. In order to do the right thing you have to know what is right, believe it is right and then execute the right thing.
Think of the bible as your B.asic I.nstructions B.efore L.eaving E.arth. We will always be a work in progress constantly hungering to be creating ourselves closer and closer to the image of Jesus Christ. That is the love we should all strive to have for God. It will take conviction, sacrifice and turning against our Earthly desires. Some people I know have knowledge of the word. Way more than I know now as I am just beginning this journey of mine yet they do not possess the wisdom. Wisdom is the appropriate use of knowledge. Using your knowledge of the word in life for God is wisdom but using that same knowledge against a fellow child of god is a far cry from the very concept of ever even having this knowledge. I myself love to dance and in my outings would also drink like a fish. But I have been born again in Jesus Christ yet I know I am weak. I do not wish to put myself in situations where I know I may be tempted to go back to who I was before I accepted God in my heart. The devils wishes for us to succumb even if it is just me going out to a club just to dance he will see me in a weak stage surrounded by non-believers and I may crumble and have crumbled in the past accepting the lie that I was that person again. God knows we can’t and never will measure up to HIS perfection but God’s grace and mercy is shown when he sent his only PERFECT son to die on the cross for OUR sins. I am struggling with this very thing and I thank God for the inspiration he has given me to write this for his beautiful children to see.
I do not wish to put down any fellow believers in any religion because that is not my intent. I only wish to share my knowledge and pray that God blesses that knowledge I am gaining and guide me into wisdom to share to all. My belief in Jesus Christ is not my religion but he is my savior, my love, my husband, my everything. I only wish to share my knowledge that I am slowly gaining everyday worshiping and bible studying with my fellow believers on what the Word says to do. I urge all believers whether you are Catholic, Pentecostal, Christian etc. that you gain that personal relationship with your savior. That relationship alone will bring you so much joy, happiness and strength you never thought possible. I am walking proof of this my friends. I don’t have much by this Earth’s standards but I have EVERYTHING in my love for Jesus! A saint receives strength from God and does NOT give up easily. (Colossians VS.11)
I’ve met some of the strongest worshipers with faith the size of mountains who within the uncertainty of the inevitable “backsliding” back into a life without God it scares them to their very core. Yet these same people know that through God all things are possible. He is the great I AM! This is something even people who have been saved for over 20 years know that they have to constantly work for. We will ALWAYS be a work in progress and not one person will be righteous enough to stop learning about God and stop trying to grow closer to him. Until that day our lord calls us up to be with him and be made like him in spirit out of this early flesh we carry with us, we must never stop gaining the wisdom of HIS word. God’s grace saves me from always giving up. His strength gives me strength to handle circumstances and as my preacher stated even joyfully at times I will face hardships. If you leave this post today with one thing I would pray that it would be to re-evaluate the relationship you have with your savior. It should be intimate as only you and HIM could be together. He lives in all of us waiting for the day for us to accept him so that we may be saved under his grace. No matter what you say or think God will always love you.
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman