God is Love

god is love                                                                                                             God IS Love

God, my Lord and savior is many great things. He is known as the Holy Spirit, God of Angel Armies, Prince of Peace, Alpha & Omega, The Great I Am, and so much more that the list can go on and on. As I began this journey after God’s heart I soon realized all that He truly is. One of the many great things God is, is love. God is Love! He is the one true definition of the word. In the book of Corinthians it speaks about love. “Love is patient and kind, love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things, Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away, as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

This to me speaks volumes on my generation and where I personally have been in my life before. I know now I’ve never truly loved because how could I love myself or another when I go against the very true essence of love defined by the word? I truly believe we cannot learn to love ourselves or anyone else until we can know and love God. God is all of these things. He is kind and patient and wishes no harm to us. He gave us life and free will even though HE is all knowing. He knows the evil that lies in each and every one of our hearts yet He loves us anyway because we are HIS children.

If you have a child I can explain it to you this way. You will always love your child because you gave them life and it is a natural instinct. They may disappoint you or get involved with horrible things which cause you to step back but your love for them will always exist and you will always hope for them to come back to you and do the right things in their lives. Well imagine that love and multiply it by infinity because God loves us more than we can even fathom. He is our Father whom we should strive to always please. If you feel like God has never done one thing great in your life or he has never favored you, remind yourself that HE gave you life!

In Romans 12:19-21 Paul talks about not taking revenge or feeding into your Wrath because the Lord’s wrath is sufficient. Make no mistake about our Lord. He IS love but HIS wrath is very real as well. If someone was messing with your child would you not feel some type of anger or a need to protect your child against harm? He feels this way towards us. We belong to him and he watches over us. He doesn’t want us to take any steps towards vengeance because we are all born sinners and even our judgement against wrong doing can be misplaced. God can see one’s heart when all we can see is the outside.

What If This Was Everyone's Motto?!

What If This Was Everyone’s Motto?!

To judge another for a sin they may have committed to you chances are you have probably done the same or are capable of doing it in the future is misplaced judgment. I find that some of the things that offend us or upset us the most are some of the very same things we ourselves are guilty of. How weird is that?


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 When we judge others we have no room to love them. Instead of judging each other we can speak truth in love according to God’s word. I am convinced that even righteous judgement should be treaded very lightly. We all fall short of perfection and is why our need for our savior becomes vital. Self-righteousness is all too easily found in the human psyche. I am still learning in my walk to keep true judgement up to God because if I am too busy judging what someone is or isn’t doing correctly where is the time to love them and point them back to God?

God doesn’t hold ANY sin higher than another. To Him it is all sin and HE is holy. Where there is holiness, sin cannot be. That is why when you live in sin the presence of the Holy Spirit dwindles. We do not know the intentions of other’s hearts but God does and if the true intentions are evil they will have HIM to answer to and may He have mercy on their souls. God bless you all my brothers and sisters and I pray this post encourages you all to love God’s way.

4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

Romans 12:19-21

Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” To the contrary, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 3:23

For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,

Isaiah 13:9

Behold, the day of the Lord comes, cruel, with wrath and fierce anger, to make the land a desolation and to destroy its sinners from it.

Romans 12:9

Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good.

Traits of Saints

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When you hear the word “Saint” certain images or behavior come to mind or at the very least in my thought process growing up it did. I grew up in a Catholic church. We prayed in the name of many saints and each saint even had their own candle and strength to which we prayed to them for. Growing up I never truly questioned our family’s belief and in the same respect never did I have the relationship I now have with my savior or any relationship with him for that matter. In my experiences it never became personal with God and I. I remember lighting candles and praying to the Virgin Mary or St. Joseph for such things as this prayer: “Oh St. Joseph, whose protection is so great, so strong, so prompt before the throne of God, I place in you all my interests and desires.” Saints were depicted to me as ones who we should pray to and even felt as if we were worshiping these saints. This is not the desire of our God. There is no name above his and all glory must go to God himself, Jesus Christ and the Holy spirit for they are the trinity. While distinct in their relations with one another, they are one in all else.

In the book of Colossians Paul’s purpose was to bring encouragement on what to believe about Christ and how to act on that belief. Saints are described as meaning “Holy Ones” who have faith in Christ and love other believers according to the Word. This is not to say saints are perfect and are people who never do wrong. God has an awesome habit of picking nobodies with weaknesses because he sees their strengths. God loves us and he wants that personal relationship with us. It does not bring him joy to see us praying to others rather than himself. HE is our God and he alone can answer our prayers. We do not need interpreters to speak to God. God can see our true hearts desires without us even speaking one word so why have a middle man? This is not to confuse with praying in numbers. There is no greater love then worshiping with your fellow believers in God’s name. So many people know God’s word and so many other people do not take the time to read HIS word. I must admit I was very much guilty of not reading the word but having a strong opinion on who God is and what he doesn’t do to his people and how he believes we should live. This whole time I was creating a God to fit my lifestyle. In order to do the right thing you have to know what is right, believe it is right and then execute the right thing.

Think of the bible as your B.asic I.nstructions B.efore L.eaving E.arth. We will always be a work in progress constantly hungering to be creating ourselves closer and closer to the image of Jesus Christ. That is the love we should all strive to have for God. It will take conviction, sacrifice and turning against our Earthly desires. Some people I know have knowledge of the word. Way more than I know now as I am just beginning this journey of mine yet they do not possess the wisdom. Wisdom is the appropriate use of knowledge. Using your knowledge of the word in life for God is wisdom but using that same knowledge against a fellow child of god is a far cry from the very concept of ever even having this knowledge. I myself love to dance and in my outings would also drink like a fish. But I have been born again in Jesus Christ yet I know I am weak. I do not wish to put myself in situations where I know I may be tempted to go back to who I was before I accepted God in my heart. The devils wishes for us to succumb even if it is just me going out to a club just to dance he will see me in a weak stage surrounded by non-believers and I may crumble and have crumbled in the past accepting the lie that I was that person again. God knows we can’t and never will measure up to HIS perfection but God’s grace and mercy is shown when he sent his only PERFECT son to die on the cross for OUR sins. I am struggling with this very thing and I thank God for the inspiration he has given me to write this for his beautiful children to see.

I do not wish to put down any fellow believers in any religion because that is not my intent. I only wish to share my knowledge and pray that God blesses that knowledge I am gaining and guide me into wisdom to share to all. My belief in Jesus Christ is not my religion but he is my savior, my love, my husband, my everything. I only wish to share my knowledge that I am slowly gaining everyday worshiping and bible studying with my fellow believers on what the Word says to do. I urge all believers whether you are Catholic, Pentecostal, Christian etc. that you gain that personal relationship with your savior. That relationship alone will bring you so much joy, happiness and strength you never thought possible. I am walking proof of this my friends. I don’t have much by this Earth’s standards but I have EVERYTHING in my love for Jesus! A saint receives strength from God and does NOT give up easily. (Colossians VS.11)

I’ve met some of the strongest worshipers with faith the size of mountains who within the uncertainty of the inevitable “backsliding” back into a life without God it scares them to their very core. Yet these same people know that through God all things are possible. He is the great I AM! This is something even people who have been saved for over 20 years know that they have to constantly work for. We will ALWAYS be a work in progress and not one person will be righteous enough to stop learning about God and stop trying to grow closer to him. Until that day our lord calls us up to be with him and be made like him in spirit out of this early flesh we carry with us, we must never stop gaining the wisdom of HIS word. God’s grace saves me from always giving up. His strength gives me strength to handle circumstances and as my preacher stated even joyfully at times I will face hardships. If you leave this post today with one thing I would pray that it would be to re-evaluate the relationship you have with your savior. It should be intimate as only you and HIM could be together. He lives in all of us waiting for the day for us to accept him so that we may be saved under his grace. No matter what you say or think God will always love you.

4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

We are a NEW Creation in Jesus Christ!


Let’s stop and think for one moment. Does our past define us? Must we wear our past as if it were our clothing to follow us on our back everywhere we go? Better yet, based on the mistakes, trials and tribulations of our pasts, that’s what makes us who we will always be, right? The simple answer is NO! These are lies that the Devil wants you to believe. To stop you from doing better and believing you can be better. When you accept Jesus Christ as your savior you become a new creation. We go through this life as caterpillars until that moment when we truly accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior in which we blossom into the beautiful butterflies that the Lord always meant for us to be, following humbly without question, truly in faith. Without Jesus Christ there would be no forgiveness for our sins. All would be damned because no one on this Earth can or ever will be without sin. God knew man’s heart was full of sin so he sent his ONLY begotten son, who in his flesh was more perfect and without any sin than the most righteous human being walking this planet today.

God’s blessing of favor in our lives is not based on our background, what side of the tracks we grew up on or the mistakes that we have made. God promises favor to every believer from HIS word and all you have to do is receive. HIS perfect love gave us the free will to choose faith and by faith alone to serve him. It is one thing to see with our own eyes but quite another to believe by faith and that is why we are given mercy by God. He knows we will never measure up to his perfect grace but by the blood of Jesus we have been saved! Some of you may be thinking but how could God ever forgive me for what I’ve done? You may think the mistakes of your past are unforgiveable but they are not. You’ve already been forgiven but you must accept him and praise him in everything you do. All God ever wanted was our love and as our creator he deserves everything we have to give plus more.

We must develop personal relationships with our savior. There are no amounts of Hail Mary’s or good deeds that you can do that will secure your place in Heaven. It should not be out of fear of hell that we choose to glorify God but out of our want and love for him. He is our father. Without God your mother’s, mother’s, mother’s, mother’s, mother’s, great ancestor would not even be here and yet so many of us go days, months, years even our whole life without gratitude for the one and only responsible for our being. You can have a positive attitude all the way to hell. Good intentions mean nothing without HIM.

We are all born sinners. I was a sinner on the daily basis. From my childhood days questioning everything about God from his existence to HIS word, to my young adult life fool of drugs, partying, men, lies, alcohol, etc. You name it and I probably did it or new someone in my life who did it. You could say I was a very godless woman. It took a long road to get to where I am now with my relationship with Jesus. By no means am I perfect or think I ever will be. I still get angry and impatient with people. I speak out of turn and have a lot of resentment and anger towards some. These are my battles and I pray every day that by the Grace of God I can learn to be slow to anger and quick to patience with others as I know the Lord is with me. People from your past may continue to bring up your past mistakes regardless of who you are trying to be and the relationship you are trying to develop with God. Pay no mind. The devil is a liar and he will use people who are close to you to try and remind you of who you USE to be so as to distract you from trying to do better. Simply smile to those who bring up your past mistakes and say thank you for reminding me of who I use to be and who I am not anymore. We are all God’s children. He doesn’t love any one of us more than another. We are all equal to him regardless of our past mistakes. Ask for forgiveness and truly try with every fiber of your being to mirror God’s image and you will never lose God’s love. All he asks is that we try and continue to glorify and love our creator. I pray for my mess to be your message. God loved us first and HE deserves our best.

4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman


2 Corinthians 5:17 NIV

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

Philippians 2:12-15 ESV

Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure. Do all things without grumbling or questioning, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world.

Don’t let anyone diminish the light within yourself…


God made us in his image. We are favored because we are his children. It was said that even the angels in heaven became jealous of the love our Lord has for us. Can you imagine that? Angels, jealous of us?! How could we not feel loved? Sad to say that we go through this life clinging to the hope that we will find that “one true love” that “never ending, all consuming, can’t sleep at night love.” All the while this love has been promised to us thousands of years ago. God’s love is perfect. It is never faltering and HE will never let you down. People on earth are only human and no matter how good a person is in one way or another disappointment will occur.

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I must admit this is all fairly new to me but I kid you not when I say in the midst of starting back from zero I have never felt more alive and full of the strength that I once prayed for every day and night. I may have had my doubts in the past. As cynical as I was I can honestly sit here today and tell you I have 0 doubts that Jesus Christ is my savior. I fell in love with Jesus and I accepted him as my one true love. At this point I am so enwrapped in Awe of our Lord and savior that a man would need to be close to God in order to be close to me.
I know someone near and dear to my heart who is going through something very similar to my situation. And I would like to dedicate this post to her! Stay strong my friend. The road is long but with God by our side there isn’t a single hardship we can’t face and overcome. She too was in an abusive relationship and tried clinging on for the sake of their child. Now when a woman falls in love she falls hard. Not saying this does not apply to men but in this case we’re talking about women who are after God’s heart. So any who, this friend of mine, is a beautiful soul lost in what she thought would be her fairytale. Her happy ending. Too many times I hear women say that they stayed longer than they would have had they not had a child together. I was one of those women. I am an advocate for marriage and of course I would never want to see any family split up but when abuse is involved then it is a whole other story.
God did not create woman from Adam’s head to be controlled by him nor did he create us from his feet to be stepped on, instead the almighty lord created Eve from Adam’s rib, close to his heart so that we may stand side by side as equals. It is when a man treats you with such love as Christ loved the church that you know you have a man of God. I myself had not been saved when I met my husband therefore I chose my partner based on things of this Earth. A mistake I will not make again. I don’t know what the future holds for me or my friend but ladies I implore you, if a man is making you feel less than what you are, a beautiful child of God, then that is a abuse and you should either seek counseling and or/remove yourself from the situation. Abuse can be verbal, mental and or physical. I’ve encountered all three in one man. I pray that God can change me and in return allow me to lead by example and pray for change in my husband. Only God knows what is in store for us but if he is showing you signs that you need to let go of something then we as women after God’s heart need to listen. He will take things away from us because he has something better than we could have ever imagined waiting for us. All it takes is a little faith. But PLEASE do not let anyone diminish the light you have within yourself. God loves you for who you are. Remember the Devil knows your name but calls you by your sin, God knows your sin but calls you by your name.
I can do all things through Christ which strengthneth me. ~Phillippians 4:13
4rm Partygirl to Praying Woman

How I “lost” everything…


As stated in my “About” post my childhood was needless to say very rocky. With my mother batteling her demons along with trying to raise two daughters, we moved from home to home and stepdad to stepdad. Now they weren’t all bad memories. When my mother was stable in her mindset and off of the drugs she was the best mother a child could ask for and had the biggest heart. She would give her last dollar so that someone else would not go withoout. Those are the memories I intend to hold near and dear to my heart but we cannot forget the mistakes of the past for they make us who we are today.
Later in my young adult life my mother was still batteling everything forementioned and sadly to say bouncing from relative’s home to relative’s home. By the age of 22 I had decided it would be best for her to come stay with me. I have many regrets in my life and painful mistakes that I am just now learning to forgive myself for. One of these mistakes was being too involved in my own world of parties, clubs and drinking to realize my mother was swirling right back into depression. The telltale signs were there but I was blind and naive. The hardest thing I have ever had to do was kick out my own mother who had turned back to drugs while staying in my home. I could not stand for it. 22 years later I refused to be her handicap. Little did I know the next time I saw her she would be dying.
I get a call from an unknown number and it is my mother pleading for me to pick her up and take her to the hospital because the people she had paid all her disablility money to for that month knew she was dying and did not want her there! After everything was said and done this was still my mother. I rushed to her side and took her to St. Joseph’s Hospital where the Dr. proceeded to tell me she only had a month to live and there was nothing he could do. She died two days later, in my bedroom all alone. When I tell you all time stopped, it literally did. I had family all spread out. My brother in El Paso, my sister in Florida and my father in Puerto Rico.

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Here I was 22, alone and on top of my mother’s lifeless body for 4 hours straight! Screaming, crying, pleading to God for just one more day! Those longest 4 hours of my life felt as if it were 4 minutes! Never had I ever felt pain in that way. My mother was in heaven in no more pain which I NOW thank God for everyday!
You know that saying when it rains it pours? Well I went through a tropical hurricane of events. Within the same month as my mother’s passing I was robbed of everything I had worked so hard for by the one person I let stay with me. We had worked together and she lost her sister a few months prior and I knew she could not be alone in this time. So I trusted her, or thought I could at least. I’m not friends with this person anymore but I forgive her now for what she did to me in my most vulnerable time. I am not here to judge anyone because I have made my fair share of mistakes and I have too wronged people.I also got fired from a waitressing position, my car broke down and was towed away with out anyway of getting it back. Since I had no job, no money, no possesions I too lost my apartment where I saw my mother take her last breathe.
I had nothing. Nothing but a brother and father who cared enough about me to take me in but that’s a post for another day.The reason I am so forthgiving with my story is because I know we all hit rock bottom in one way or another. I turned to more drinking and more parties because I had no idea how else to handle this pain. I wanted to be blame the world and at the time had no idea what I believed in. A couple years later I meet my husband, we get married and rock bottom gets a 2nd visit from me.
God saved me, my marriage ,(<<< read more about how faith saved my marriage) and my family. Now I have a loving husband, like minded people around me that I love dearly and a 9 month old daughter that depends on me to be a strong example of a Godly woman along with my renewed faith in the lord. This is my journey to share to all women after God’s heart. The path will not always be wrapped in a neat lil red bow but with God by our sides there is nothing to fear!

If you have not already accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior then please do NOT wait another second. He wants you to come as you are and become a new creation in HIM. God’s love and salvation is waiting to give you the gift of saving grace through HIS son Jesus Christ. I pray for each and every one of you be lifted in His almight name, Amen.

4rm Partygirl to Praying woman